I am okay

I am kinda suprised that I am okay. I though that break up would destroy me for a while but no. Of course I have cried and I have been sad but I continue my life. Maybe I am really gotten stronger. Maybe I feel okay because I know I tried my best.  Moving out from home helped me a lot with break up too.

I have lived a week alone now. Of course it’s boring and lonely sometimes but mostly awesome. I can do what I want. I can watch tv at 3am. I have been taking good care of myself. I am waiting my home to be ready so I can celebrate with friends and family.

I want to spend more time with my friends. I want to actually do something with them. And that is kinda new to me.

But now I have to go. ;-;

Love from Alex <3

FUTURE??

What I want to do when I’m older? I probably want to work as a chef at least few years. I have only 1,5 years school left and then I graduate and I can call myself a chef.

I want to live alone for a while just to try do I really want it and I want to see that I survive alone. I want to write as much as I can because it’s quiet and my environment is calm. I want to drink hot cocoa and just write.

I want to make myself a good home where I am safe and I can rest in peace. I want to make people feel good and happy there. I want to make small parties and fun with important people.

And if we think about my future in 5 years.. I probably want to live with my girlfriend then (sooner than that is fine too). I am still working of course. Maybe some kind of a pet or two.  I WANT TO SPEND CHRISTMAS WITH MY GIRLFRIEND! AND HOPEFULLY SOME DAY I CAN CALL HER MY WIFE. I don’t know about yet kid(s).

I REALLY WANT TO WRITE A POEM BOOK AND I KEEP WRITING MY WHOLE LIFE FOR THAT AND FOR MYSELF!!  I want people to read my poems and make them feel less alone. And at the same time I help myself. It’s cool.

I want to travel as much as I can with my girlfriend and probably with friends too. I’m not sure do I want to travel much alone. I want to see more Finland and other countries too.